Lexy.

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Dare to dream (by Jueno [ Ricey ])

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If it weren’t for the fact that Ive only ever had people push me around in life, I would give him up because he is too good for me… but I need someone like that in my life. i just have to tell myself one thing, if it doesn’t work, atleast I have a hopefully soon to be close really goo guy friend who is going into counseling… perfect! And he is smart.

I’ve been through stuff, & he can speak through smarts about how to get through things… thats a plus. A good thinker..

Anwyays, I guess Ill leave this one in Gods hands,…

if nothing comes out of this, atleast I know the future heartache was worth all the learning experiences..

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Today:

I had a nectarine smoothie for bfast

lunch I had vegetable korma

dinner I had veggie gluten free pizza.

I think I ate overall a lot smaller portions and healthy.

I didn’t workout, took a day off since the weekend. trying to practice the principle of progression also. It’l work better that way.

Plus, I missed working out so next time I do..

tomorrow?

I will even harder at the gym. plus my muscle got some rest. :)

I went to my best friend from high schools baby shower today.. poor girl is dating a druggy thug. SMH

I hope the best for her kid though..

Overall it was a bad day though, my mom called me undesirable, allergic to hardwork, agreed that I would live in a homeless shelter too..

just rude.

made me cry hard but yeah

making good progress with this guy i’m “Talking’ to even though Im not gonna get my hopes up because I know I can’t be his type. I’m not good enough for him & he is picky when he picks girls to date. But maybe this can be an infuential experience of what to look for in a mate, & how to better myself since Im working on that really hard anyways..

That’s about all there is to today..

Ready for tomorrow, hoping the gym is open & to also lay outside in the sun for a bit maybe get an urge to clean my house again…

since my mom kind of shot down all urges I had already…

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motivation to workout; you’re the youngest you’ll ever be again with the best metabolism you’ll ever have again.

It’s keeping me on this hurry feeling. i like that.

So I realized today that at camp I used to just eat meat since I can’t eat gluten (allergic) but now I’m a vegetarian…

There will be no options for me, & i can’t just cook my own meal. I suppose I could bring microwavable nonperishable goods with me in my suitcase.

Very excited about camp this yr. I’m also going to be laying out during swim time everyday that week with my campers. I’m already indian brown, can’t wait to become black very shortly.

Camp is my ultimate fav time of the whole yr.

Anyways, I’ve been doing better work on my teeth & they have whitened tremendously just in the past 2 days.. like 4-5 shades. :) They’re now as white as my eye whites. :)

Today work out”: 20 mins elliptical, 10 mins bike, then walked and jogged 1 1/2 miles. Then laid outside for 10 minutes to get just a little bit of sun.

I went running tonight with my brother also. Ran & walked 1.60 miles.

food:

bowl of peach oatmeal for bfast

lunch: texturized vegetable Protein cooked in roasted red pepper dressing with half an onion, some cornbread. yumm

dinner: a few strawberries & grapes, salsa & corn chips, cinnamon homemade shake sweetened with agave nectar to curve my appetite. yummy.

I think I’m lactose & gluten intolerant though, & I’m vegetarian… Life is rough.

i love eating healthy, but everything vegetarian if it’s packaged has gluten in it for filler…

so, I am going to learn how to cook even more this summer.

Also, there is this guy I have been Talking” to ish.. & he would be great for me. Lets see if he doesn’t give up on me because I don’t live in state.. :crosses fingers:

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Today I didn’t workout near as much as I wanted to, or cleaned as much as I wanted to… But I wasn’t real lazy, and that’s what matters.. Adjusting to not taking vit for energy is harder than I thought. I don’t want to, but if I didn’t think it was bad for me to take se everyday then I wouldn’t try to go without them. I only did 1/4 of all my workouts today.. But anyways, I still ate very well, just too much.
Bowl of gluten free cereal, bowl of strawberries with a scoop of ice cream, vegetarian chilli, carrots & sweet potato/cinnamon crackers, gluten free veggie and noodle soup. If
The portions were smallerrrr, then I wouldn’t feel so bad for eating that much.. Or if I worked out a lot more. :/ ohwells.

Well, I started working on my teeth whitening process today. Proud of myself for that.

Tomorrow: workout twice both hard.
Eat less.
Work on cleaning my room. Get baby shower gift. Turn in job apps.

This weeks main focus is getting on an actual routine basis & things accomplished.

Next week focus: up the caloric output & take in, or eat a lot less & less gluten food..

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i kind of ate a lot today, but I probably burned 1,000 calories working out today.

Excited for tomorrow. Going super hard again, I get to get P90X for free, cleaning house, going running in the morning, filling out applications and turning them in…

Busy day, hope to accomplish it all.

I feel good that I worked out that hard today.

Probably go less hard tomorrow.

15 mins. elliptical. 20 mins bike. 20 mins AMT 15 mins elliptical

loving me some cardio

from now until the next 3 ish weeks, it is hardcore cardio time! not going to even think about weight resistance machines until a month from now. Burning chub away first.

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Ok so don’t listen to the person has been through it before..
You’re too dang sensitive and complain about everything little thing. But you don’t even think you complain. If I complain about a lot, then you complain about everything.

People only feel sorry for you to an extent. I’ll make sure when I don’t feel good that I text you it every 5 mins…

Then tell me if youll care. Tell me if it doesn’t get on your nerves.

You act like I’m being sooo rude to you. Well,
I’m not.. Actually.

I know babies who don’t even complain as much as you. You need to realize if you keep being that way, no one will want you in their life… Same thing happened to me and I changed it for a long time…